Disappointment

I know a lot about disappointment. Let me just also say that while that is so very true, I also have an amazing family and for the most part on the day to day basis, I love my life. My disappointments have been on a pretty large scale though and I tend not to talk about them all that often. I guess I think it will lead to wallowing or self pity or will just sound like I am boo hooing. My latest disappointment is my most recent miscarriage. It started this weekend and is still going on today. This is my third in a row and I just don't know that I can go through this again. So, today I am so very sad and so very tired of getting my hopes up for what are normal expectations in life and then just having them disappointed. It makes me not want to have hopes and it makes me so confused when I look around and see so many people my age just sailing smoothly through life. I don't begrudge any of them their smooth sailing, I'd just like to experience it once in a while too.