To tell or not to tell...

Sorry it's been so long since I posted. Really it doesn't matter because no one other than me actually reads this blog. That is fine for me though because it means there is no pressure. I don't feel that I'm letting anyone down if I don't post regularly - and that would be a problem for me because I am real people pleaser. I was just talking with a good friend about the whole issue of who (or is it whom - wish I had paid more attention in English class) to tell about your blog. She is one of my real life friends and we don't live in the same city anymore so I love being able to follow her life via her blog. She has recently found though that she is censoring herself at times because she doesn't necessaruly want everyone in her personal life knowing all of her business so to speak - not me of course! I haven't told any of my real life people about my blog - not even my husband. I'm not sure why really other than I just want this for me and I don't want to censor myself. If I need to vent about someone in my life I want to be able to do it here without hurting anyone's feelings. I want to be able to express how I really am doing and if people I knew were reading this I think I'd tend to be less honest. I like to always present a rosy picture. I don't want everyone to know when I am not feeling great or when I am having a lot of anxiety about this cancer business. I just want people to think that I am the same happy person I have always been before all of this and of course because I don't want to end up in the padded room I realize I need to get the real feelings out somewhere so for now I'm not announcing to my real world that I have this blog. How about you guys (maybe there actually is one person out there reading this) - is your blog known to your friends and family?