Kindergarten

My baby started kindergarten on Tuesday. I am so happy for her but just so sad about the whole thing at the same time. I cried my eyes out in bed on Monday night and I barely kept it together through the drop off on Tuesday morning. Since then the week just feels kind of weird - not horrible but just off somehow. I have really enjoyed being home with her the last five years and kindergarten is the end of that part of our lives. I know we'll have summers and school breaks but I just don't think there's going to be much time to do all of the other things that we like to do together. Don't get me wrong - I am enjoying the time with my other mommy friends who are in the same boat. I went to breakfast with a group on Tuesday, to lunch with my husband on Wednesday and to lunch with a couple friends today and it was nice. I've been to the mall and actually got to go in to the stores I wanted to visit. I even came home today but my cleaning lady was here this morning so I wasn't here by myself and we chatted quite a bit. I think I'm a little wary of being home alone without my daughter and with all of my thoughts but I am going to try it. My husband joked yesterday that now I can be a lady who lunches. I have a friend from college that started working part time from home a few years ago shortly after she married and when she did that she said "It's not like I want to be a lady who lunches or anything". Madison was a newborn at the time and I responded that I did want to be a lady who lunches and she fessed up that she secretly wanted to be one too but that it just sounded so aweful. So my husband and I have joked about it since. I know that's not all that I am but maybe this week that's all I am aspiring to.
In other news, we decide to take two bedrooms and turn them into a bonus room and we started this past weekend. So, I thought it would be completely done by the end of the long weekend but that isn't the case. I have stuff EVERYWHERE!! All the crap (and I do mean crap) from those two rooms has been split among the other three rooms upstairs and it is driving me mad. I need to go order the flooring tomorrow and depending on how long that takes it shouldn't be long before it is done. I also need to pick paint. I really wish there were people who read my blog because I could use some help in this department. I have no idea what to do with the room. I liked a lot of what Tori Spelling did in their house. Of course my husband said I'm a big dork for watching her show but I was really hooked. Well, I better get to bed. I have a big day tomorrow involving dropping off my kindergartener at school, going to a volunteer meeting and then to a friend's house for coffee - hmmm no lunch plans yet!!